Trinity

Guilt consumes me like flames 
devouring my flesh
leaving my charred bones 
to uphold ruins of my trinity
zealously reliving 
choices I should have made

should have
could have
what if I would have?

The wind blows so hard
the stars might fall out of the sky-
What if the Dipper
spills all the secrets the galaxy holds
in its white web of dreams?

Would it tell my secrets, too?

would it 
should it
could it

Ice slows my veins
teardrops turn to snowflakes
as they fall from my eyes
remorse collecting 
in the hand I could not hide

What if I could have
What if I should have
What if I would have

Could we 
be holding hands
by the campfire

Would we 
be sleeping 
together under the stars 

I should 
build myself an igloo
a church of the frozen heart
temple to nostalgia 

Serve my sentence
do my penance 
priest, wardens
the string trio of unholy ghosts

my triumvirate 

Could have
Should have
Would have